Window Pain
MARKET STREET, SAN FRANCISCO - 2020
Window Pain acts as a filter: wherever it is placed, it creates the illusion of rain.
Window Pain
GOLDEN GATE BRIDGE, SAN FRANCISCO - 2020
Credit: Chi On Ip — for assisting with documentation
There is a saying: when it rains, the sky is crying.
I moved to San Francisco at 19 to study Fine Arts. That time was both beautiful and, at moments, difficult. I faced many challenges and made mistakes I was afraid to admit. During that period, I went through one of the lowest points in my life.
Window Pain was created during a time when I began to see things more clearly, yet still carried a sense of sadness. Painted on glass, the raindrops resemble teardrops. The work acts as a filter—wherever it is placed, it creates the illusion of rain, as if the world is seen through that feeling.
I carried the piece throughout San Francisco, photographing and filming it in places I frequented, translating an internal experience into a physical form.
I once believed sadness was something to avoid. Over time, I came to understand that without it, joy would lose its meaning. I learned how to sit with it, to fully feel it, and to grow from it. This work honors those emotions—the highs and lows.
It took me six years to share this work. In many ways, it reveals a part of me that feels exposed and vulnerable. Now, I am ready to face it again—and to share it with you.
36×36 in / 90×90cm
Mixed Media on Glass
2020
BAY BRIDGE, SAN FRANCISCO - 2020
In front of the Bay Bridge, my favorite place to walk and get some air. The wind is always there, but so is a quiet sense of peace. People move gently—walking, jogging, or sharing a slow moment together.
GOLDEN GATE BRIDGE, SAN FRANCISCO - 2020
Window Pain in front of the Golden Gate Bridge at night. I used to stand here for a long time, watching tourists come and go. At night, it becomes quiet—almost still. Every time I leave, it feels like I’m leaving something behind.
Golden Gate Bridge
Window Pain
There is a saying, when it rains - the sky is crying.
I came to San Francisco when i was 19. The time i spent studying Fine Arts in San Francisco was amazing but also so lonely. Having to figure everything out by myself and barely know the language, i stumbled into many troubles and also made tons of mistake that i’m scared to admit. I found myself at the lowest point ever. I learnt how to spend time by myself, learnt to process my feelings, learn to take care of myself. Being far away from home was hard, also gave me the most freedom, to become whoever i wanted to be.
While im so grateful for all the experience, i got to a point where i see everything so clearly, but i was just…sad. i guess depression hit me hard.
I made this painting “Window Pain” on glass - i painted the rain drop, just like the tear drop. The piece works as a filter. no matter where you put it, it’s raining over there. I named it Window Pain, because through it, you see the sadness everywhere, just like how i did. I decided to take it everywhere in San Francisco, took pictures, filmed it in front of places i normally go, how I saw everything, just translate to physical form.
I used to think sadness was a bad emotion, one that i don’t want to feel, to face and to accept. Always finding a way to escape, to avoid. Then I realized, without all this feelings, i wouldn’t value the happy moment. A gift of life isn’t it.
One of the reason why i took so long to public this artwork, it’s because it’s showing a part of me, very exposed and extremely vulnerable. Fast foward 6 years, i”m ready to face all this feelings again, and showing you… a piece of me.
36×36 in / 90×90cm
Mixed Media on Glass
2020
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Bay Bridge
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Golden Gate Bridge
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Market Street
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Half Moon Bay
